Birthday Boy 11/18/16 8:15pm
Today is Josh's 27th Birthday. He is still fighting infections and has been sleeping most of the day. We are hoping that he rests up this weekend and is very active when the rest of the family gets in town next week.
Today has been more difficult for me than I thought it would be. I have thought a lot about the past 27 years and of all the memories I have with Josh. Josh has always been the spark in our family. In typical older brother fashion, my favorite birthday memory of Josh was around age 5 or 6. I convinced him to stick his face in his cake when my mom's back was turned. Always up for anything, he happily obliged. I can't imagine what life would have been like growing up without a brother. For so many years he was my sidekick. He would follow me and my friends around, always trying to keep up. I like to think that having me as an older brother made him tough. By the time we both made it to college, I no longer thought of him as a sidekick, but as my partner and best friend. We spent so many late nights talking about what the rest of our lives were going to be like. Josh wanted to travel the world and I wanted the same. I, however, was too afraid to act on that dream. Josh dove right in. He has lived his life exactly how we dreamed. Since the accident I have often thought that I need to live life more like Josh, wholeheartedly and without reservation. I feel like I owe that to him.